Origin of PaunFarr

Hello to anyone who happens to read this blog!

This first entry should simply be a "who am I" type thing, or rather an intro to my name at least. I'm sure eventually I'll get more into me, at least as far as I'm comfortable sharing.

This blog is called "PaunFarr's Amok Time". This is actually a very blatant Star Trek reference, but I'll explain for anyone not familiar with it.In the Star Trek series the Vulcan race (Spock) spend their entire lives religiously suppressing their emotions. They try to live their lives peacefully and with logic. Once every seven years Vulcan's enter what is called "pon farr" where their suppressed emotions are set free and they have an uncontrollable desire to mate. They can actually get quite violent about the whole thing, and if they don't mate they will die. Amok Time is the title of the Star Trek episode where pon farr was first introduced.

For myself, I chose the name "PaunFarr" to represent my suppressed sexual thoughts and feelings. It's a way for me to express things that just aren't "proper" in society. It's also a way for me to be explore ideas and fantasies I'm not ready to try in my real life.

In time I hope that I can incorporate the attitudes of my PaunFarr self into the "real me" such that I'm comfortable and open about all of my sexuality. Even so, I may maintain the PaunFarr identity for the comfort it gives me on the Internet.

My intention with this blog is to give myself a place to share my thoughts. To talk about whatever interests me and maybe to share a fantasy or two. My biggest worry is that this will be horribly boring and no one will care. If so, that's fine, but at least I can use this as my personal therapist.

So lay back on the couch, get comfy, get ready. It's Amok Time folks...